"oh Lord, why did you forsake me? oh Lord, don't be far away away, storm clouds gathering beside me, please Lord, don't look the other way"

i can't shake it these feelings:

discouraged.
defeated.
numb.
guilty.
ashamed.
scared.
nervous.
alive.
invisible.
weak.
confused.
deserted.
static.
uncertain.
worried.
doubtful.
embarrassed.
anxious.
broken.
still.
exhausted.
discontent.
afraid.
exasperated.

i am a:

volcano.